👩🏻 Why do I hate my white skin so much?

I honestly wish I had just a tiny bit of color to me. I hate the way I look out in the sun and I think I look gross. I feel as if I am a corpse. I burn up in the sun which could prevent me from ever attempting getting a tan. Plus my heritage is boring and textbook. My background is English and French with the only minor interest being Czechoslovakian. I'm not one of those self-hating white individuals who openly express their guilt over historical events that have long passed us by. I am someone who merely wishes I could have been born into a culture that feels cultured. I have always admired other cultures that I was never a part of. I've had different phases where I have been fascinated by African, Hispanic, Native American, Indian, Japanese, Jewish, and even German to some extent. I am just boring and there is nothing going on with me ethnically. If there was ever an argument for the existence of somebody who is transracial (pronounced as one word) then perhaps I am that very argument.